Restlessness


Yesterday at dawn,

My friend said, How long will this unconsciousness go on?

You fill yourself with the sharp pain of love,

Rather than its fulfilment.

I said, “But I can’t get to you!

You are the whole dark night,

And I am a single candle.

My life is upside down because of you!”

The friend replied,

I am your deepest being.

Quit talking about wanting me!

I said, “Then what is this restlessness?”

The Friend:

Does a drop stay still in the ocean?

Move with the entirety, and with the tiniest particular.

Be the moisture in an oyster

That helps to form one pearl.

Rumi

This beautiful poem brings to mind a book by John O Donohue called Eternal Echoes, The Longing to Belong, in which he makes the point that we are destined to always feel a restlessness within, which is indeed the craving within us , the direction within us that is leading us on our path. We do in human form experience the irritation that creates ‘the pearl within the shell’, and a water droplet never stays still within the ocean. This restlessness, this urge comes from our deepest place, finding expression in the space that is the tension, of our experiencing the illusion of separation within us, that agitates us to travel within to actively and consciously rejoin our Source and know that we are indeed joined at all times.

The spiritual journey can be a dry and dusty place, whilst we seek without; full of seemingly never-ending mountains, where we feel like we take two steps upwards, make progress,  then lose our footing and end up sitting on our bottoms at the base of the mountain yet again. Or we may see it as a pathway through a jungle, in which we seem to be getting along quite well and then suddenly the branches gather round us like the thorns and thickets in fairy tales and we are at a dead-end, no way ahead, no way back. The labyrinth, the maze, the spiral…inner and outer…

Confusion, blindness, seem to be our best known companions  yet there is also a great truth that we may find helpful to remember. We are always moving inwards towards our destination and place of origin which we have actually never left; and that destination resides within our own deepest being. We will each discover one day that we are not seeking anything, or going anywhere. Then as we relax, we become adepts of transforming matter, moving with the entirety and the tiniest particular. We simply relax into the place of no resistance to the Divine Presence and float…at complete harmony with all. In the meantime, its two steps up and down on our bottoms yet again…until we become masters at harmonising with our deepest being on all levels.

As the poem says:

I am your deepest being.

Quit talking about wanting me!

Pearl in Oyster shell

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